blueskyways.

If your life is terrible, what about them ?

2012-01-17T03:26:00.000-08:00

I went to the Orphanage yesterday. It's located at Sungai Panas. "Panti Asuhan Vistos Kasih Ikhlas". The owner is a christian woman. She takes care of every children there wholeheartedly and she handles the kid with love. She gives all of them chance to learn and study at school. She's such an amazing woman. There are 42 kids that live there. Most of them are aged around 5. They take care of each other and they are very polite. They are not "wild" like what I thought. One of them is an autism. Some of them are the victims of Tsunami at Aceh in 2004. Some of them come from the broken-home family. Some of them don't have mom. Some of them don't have dad. And some of them don't have both mom and dad.

Sorry for the bad quality of the pictures. Anyway, this is my first time visiting the orphanage. Such an experience x <3

2012-01-12T00:11:00.000-08:00

HELLO....................... BYE !

Surprise me 2012 !

2011-12-30T08:02:00.000-08:00

2012 is coming. Soon. So many things that I've done in 2011. Happy, sad, regret, failure, disappointed, surprised, touched, fights, everything. Thanks for the memories and may 2012 create more unforgettable memories than 2011. I am thinking of making a list what I have done in 2011 but I'm still not sure whether I have to post it or not. I will post it later, if I'm sure enough. Forget and learn from the past, do the best for the future. Time really flies fast ! I'm going to be 16 next year and it means Mommy and Daddy will grow older. I don't know what to say. Last but not least, I wish you guys have a great celebration for the new year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 !

mucho loves x :{D

Dear Santa,

2011-12-25T00:01:00.000-08:00

Please give me this because I want this so much.

Have yourself a very Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday, Jesus :D

FAT

2011-12-22T19:49:00.000-08:00

HOW TO BE THAT CONFIDENT......................

2011-12-20T21:29:00.000-08:00

Why ? A couple is in love, then fight, then break-up and curse each other. Is that a cool thing to do after a break-up ? Don't they remember the days they had had before. How sweet they were. How much memories they had made. Why should curse at twitter, or facebook, or blackberry messenger status ? How bad your ex-partner is, they used to be with you, right ? They had ever came to your life and gave you something called happiness and memories (:

I WANT ZAYN MALIK FOR CHRISTMAS !!!

2011-12-16T03:36:00.000-08:00

ZAYN MALIK WHY YOU SO HOT ?

2011-12-08T05:11:00.000-08:00

I'm not who I used to be.

Why?

Because I've been hurt. I've gone through a lot of shit which has made me who am i today. Over these past years, so many things have happened. Things that have changed who I used to. Little things, big things. Everything. As time passes, no one stays the same person. People tell me that I've changed. Don't you think I know that ? Of course I've changed, I'm not going to stay the same person forever. Pain does that to people.

It'll end. Soon.

2011-12-05T22:10:00.001-08:00

You're right. I'm sorry, I'm just a little depressed, that's all. I can get through this. –Buzz Lightyear (Toy Story)

FTW.

2011-11-24T20:03:00.000-08:00

"Emotionally, I’m done. Mentally, I’m drained. Spiritually, I'm dead and yet physically, I smile.Life." -Tiffany William.

Pray for Batam.

2011-11-24T19:27:00.000-08:00

I live here. At Batam. A small city near Singapore. So, two days ago there was a demonstration. Did by the 2000++ workers I think. They asked for more salary, UMK (Upah Minimum Kerja). I thought everything was under controlled and lasted for only one day. But who knows ? Yesterday was a mess. They burned the cars and motorcycle, damaged the police post, threw the stone to the mayor's office, etc. I don't understand why they have to do that. Is that the only way ? I know, they're asking for their right, a more salary. But their action are disturbing everyone life. They make everyone worry. Well, I hope they will open their mind and finally realize that what they are doing is a big mistake. They're making a mess and what can they get from this ? Nothing. And the government, I don't really know what they're doing. They didn't take any action yesterday. And why don't the mayor comes out and talk to them ? They want to meet you, dearest mayor.

I skipped school today. The main reason is lazy, the other reason is I'm afraid that I can't go home because of the demonstration. As what I've heard, today will be the last day they demonstrate and will be scarier than yesterday. Well, I've got some news that there are a lot of people near the bus stop at my school.And my friends can't go home. I hope everything will end soon. I've never seen a real demonstration. This is my first time HAA. Well, let's pray for Batam o:)

And yes, today is the Teacher's Day. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teacher's in the world :D

How Time Flies.

2011-11-05T00:22:00.000-07:00

Time flies so fast. It's almost the end of 2011. A new year and start. It's been a while since the new term of school started. Edufair and Yoscup, my school program had ended. How time flies. It's the 5th of November today. I hope everything goes well. Smoothly. I will have my exam on the 28th of November. I'm still struggling hard with some subject at science class. I never passed on my physics test. My score for chemistry and physics are not really good. It's not enough. And if I fail, I might have to repeat grade 11. I try to chill and take it relax. I don't really study hard like other friends. I can't study one week before the test. I study one day right before the test. And about studying abroad, I have to wait until I'm done with my high school. This is not what I want. Well, but this is the reality. It won't take a long time. Because you know, how time flies c:

SOMEDAY.

2011-09-17T02:34:00.000-07:00

I know you don't really see my worth. You think you're the last guy on earth. Well I got news for you, I know I'm not that strong but it wont take long. One day I'll forget about you.You'll see, I won't even miss you. Someday.

Someday-Nina.

2011-09-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

It's like I want to tell you something, I want to share a story but become speechless and cry. You don't understand.

hey, how's life going without me ?

2011-09-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

I know. Everyone hurts. Me and you. But life keep going. MOVE ON:

2011-08-28T04:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Sunday bloggers ;) I spend my Sunday at Amelia's. We bake muffin and cookies.

So, yesterday was just..... I don't know how to describe it.

You know when you got a person who loves you much and you act like you don't love them just because something like 'trauma' in the past, just because you're afraid when you confess that you got the same feeling as him, he will dump you, and other particular reason like that... And when you started to open your heart, to change, to accept everything, that person go with the tired reason. I know things are not that simple. We urged before, and after almost a year, yes everything end. End because there is no certainty. You're too afraid to tell him you love him but you love and accept the way he treats you. And before everything has ended, you're treated so well until you don't even suspect that there is something wrong, that everything is so fine. MOVE ON BITCH :D

You do meant to be in this world. Everyone does.

2011-08-19T07:46:00.000-07:00

DESPERATE ~~FUCK~~. I got nothing to make my parents or myself proud. Sucha failure. I want to be an optimistic person but I just can't. I feel like I got no talent. Do I have one ? What is that ?
I want to be talented. Who doesn't ?
A friend of mine says that there are no extra pieces in the universe. Everyone is here because he or she has a place to fill. He is also the one who says that I'm meant to be in this world Cha and so is everybody. I wish I can be as optimist as him. He gives me so much advice. Thank you Dillon :)
So any suggestion what should I do ? I'm so disappointed with myself.
Life goes on. Enjoy it wholeheartedly. Much better that you don't enjoy it at all. It will make you feel even harder to pass the stage when you're not feeling okay x.

Happy 66th Birthday, Indonesia.

2011-08-19T07:27:00.000-07:00

A bit late, well............ It's okay. So two days ago on 17th of August was Indonesia's Independence day. I join the choir and we sang at Bank Indonesia. Nothing special. Watched Kungfu Panda 2 with some friends. And I could actually go to Alun2 to watch the flag ceremony that my best friend Livia and Henter took part in. But the fact was I didn't go. And I regret it ~~MUCH~~. I wish I got a time machine so that I can go back to that time :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA <3 Be better in everything :D I love you, not the government TEEHEE x.

You are you.

2011-08-06T09:30:00.000-07:00

HOW TO BE AS PRETTY AND AS SLIM AS HER ?!! ~!@#$%^&*()
I try to cherish everything that I got. Every part of my body. Though I want to be like her, or her, or her.
This week is the test week. Test everyday. I'm not goin to make it. I hate my class. K......... Bye :D

Crazy little thing called love.

2011-08-02T01:16:00.000-07:00

Holiday's over. Going back to school tomorrow. I hate it. I spend the last day of my holiday by staying all day long at home, watching a film, thailand film "Crazy Little Thing Called love". They all say that the main actor is handsome. Yes, indeed he is.

I'm bored. I don't know what to do now. Let's play tetris on facebook. K...... Bye for now.

School.

2011-07-20T06:04:00.000-07:00

I hate school. I hate the Indonesian government custom. They seperate the class into two or three class with the different major. Science, Social and Language. Languange class is like rare in my town. I wish i had an option. Not to choose both science and social. I want to move to the place where there is no such as major seperation. I'm so desperate because of this. I regret going to the science major. But I don't want to be at the social class too. I wish my parents let me move. Singapore is okay. As long as they don't matter about the major. I don't really understand why they don't let me move. They let me move. Later. After I graduate from the senior high school. Okay, they say I'm not independent. I'm a girl. I'm still small. I don't know what else and I don't want to know. I don't think they understand how desperate I am. I'm not good at science, nor social. I hate physics and I hate geography. being a science student is tough. Yes, TOUGH. I'm not going to make it. I mean, I feel hopeless. They just don't understand why I feel hopeless. All they know is I'm not confident and I keep saying "I CAN'T". I tried so many time to make myself believe that I can. And the result is zero. When I say "I can", all I got is the bad result. I still hope for miracle. I pray to God. I try to convince them too. At least when they say I can move next year. If I move next year, I'm going to spend 2 years for college and 2 years for the university and I will be graduated as a S1 student. Yes, of course if I succeed. It's useless. They won't let me go HA. I have to accept this fact and be realistic. Feel better after I write this down. No one understand how I feel because it's also hard for me to understand myself. That desperate feeling is hard to explain.

So let's just see, do miracle exist ? I don't think so (: Stop expecting much alfrecha! :D

Stitch.

2011-07-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

I'm sick of school. I don't know why. I hate it. I think i choose the wrong major. Science, yes. I just hate going to school. Or maybe I should try to adapt.
I don't know what should we call this in English, MOS (Masa Orientasi Siswa). Those moment was hella fun. I got a lot of experience there. So, we, the committee should help the new students to adapt in Yos Sudarso. I got 13 love letter and about 15 handmade. Thanks junior <3

And Stitch ! I've been wanting a Stitch and 3 Little Green Men doll. And I finally got it YEAY. And I also got an angrybirds doll, what a surprise :D

THANKYOU :D

will you miss me when i'm gone ?

2011-07-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

So hey everyone. How are you and your holiday ? Mine's okay. School doesn't start until tomorrow. I think the holiday is just not enough. They gave us only 2 weeks and other school got 3 weeks to spend on their holiday.

I'm not feeling really good this morning. I mean, I'm dissapointed and sad enough. Why ? Here. My friend. My good friend. I don't think they do care about me. Or idk. They cn go out with their friend, who is my friend too but they forgot about me. They don't even ask me to go out. I don't know whether they forget about me or they don't want me to join them or maybe they don't like to go out with me. The point I don't go out with them. All they ask to join is that 'girl'. I feel like crying. Maybe I'm the one who is over-sensitive. So what ? BEING FORGOTTEN SUCKS. I'm not important for them ? YES. You may say that I envy that 'girl' because I really do. I know I must not. But, you won't understand how it feels like being all alone and forgotten HA.

Clouds of Jupiter

2011-06-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hi Ho ! The result of my exam is not that good but well it's okay. I've done the best. I'm waiting for my report card which will be given next week. I hope I get the satisfying result. It's holiday tomorrow but I still have to go to school for the students organization practice and meeting. The classmeeting will be start by Tuesday. I hope this month will be a good month for me. I'm going to Jakarta for holiday and i can't wait for it YEAAAY :D

Pictures were taken 2 days ago by Amelia.
Visit my tumblr. Bye !

With an apple, I will astonish Paris.

2011-06-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

EXAM'S OVER YEAAAY :D

www.orangebutch.tumblr.com

the sky was as blue as your eyes.

2011-06-03T03:48:00.000-07:00

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I’m acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He’d play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We’d buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly ; some who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.

teenagers.

2011-05-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

"Being a teenager is vastly overrated. We all make mistakes, we are stubborn and we couldn't give two shits what our parents think, we hate school, we cause shit, we fight, we love, we cry, we give up on believing in a higher power. We're all fucked up and that's the truth, we all come from dysfunctional families, because no family is perfect; We say things we don't mean, we yell, we scream, we get broken hearts, we get drunk, we have sex. Grades don't mean anything anymore. We live on quotes and music that describes our lives and most importantly we are tired. We are tired of waking up each morning and having to go to school where we see the people we hate or people we love, we get tired of waiting for the text messages that's not going to come and we get tired of pretending we're fine."

dolly dolly doll :3

2011-05-19T03:44:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THIS AND I WANT THIS !!!

2011-05-15T23:42:00.000-07:00

TEN HOW'S
How did you get one of your scars?
mosquito bites
How did you celebrate your last birthday?
dinner with my family
How are you feeling at this moment?
sick, i got belly pain
How did your night go last night?
bad. i'm not in a really good mood last night
How did you do in high school?
not really well. kinda stressed out -_-
How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
my mom bought the shirt.
How often do you see ur best friend?
almost everyday
How much money did you spend last month?
i forgot. no, i didn't count it actually :P
How old do you want to be when you get married?
21-23 HAHAHA i'm serious :D
How old will you be at your next birthday?
sixteen (:

NINE WHAT'S
Your mothers name?
er...
What did you do last weekend?
went to my friend's house and went to megamall and ate
What is the most important part of your life?
the moment i spent with my family, and friends :3
What would you rather be doing?
i would rather be happy all the time
What did you last cry over?
my feeling was messed up i think.
What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
cry maybe ?
What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
feeling
What are you worried about?
SCHOOL D:
What did you have for breakfast?
i havent eaten any breakfast :D

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
no
Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yes :/
Have you ever been out of the country?
yes
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yes and i regret it much.
Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
i forgot.
Have you ever had sex on the beach?
nope
Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
nope
Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yes

SEVEN WHO’S
Who was the last person you saw?
my maid
Who was the last person you texted?
Agustian Subijako
Who was the last person you hungout with?
my cousin :3
Who was the last person to call you?
er, i forgot and i've deleted my recent received call list -_-
Who did you last hug?
Michelle Natalia :D
Who is the last person who texted you?
Billy Yosua Alfamonka
Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
i forgot. i havent said that 3 words for a long time i think :/

SIX WHERE’S
Where does your best friend live?
batam
Where did you last go?
a place to eat
Where did you last hang out?
resto @ central
Where do you go to school?
SMAKYS
Where is your favorite place to be?
i dont know :/
Where did you sleep last night?
my bed of course

FIVE DO’S/DOES
Do you like someone right now?
not sure :D
Do you think anyone likes you?
not sure too :D
Do you ever wish you were someone else?
YES, and still wishing right now
Do you know the muffin man?
no, who is he ?
Does the future scare you?
i think yes. i'm thinking what if i fail in my future :/

FOUR WHY’S
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
because they understand me well <3
Why did you get a myspace?
i dont have it
Why did your parents give you the name you have?
i dont know
Why are you doing this survey?
got nothing to do

THREE IF’S
If you could have one super power what would it be??
teleport :D
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
my past
If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
handphone with the signal

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S
Would you ever forgive your enemy?
yes
Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
not really sure

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
not really. but im trying to :D

Mars and Venus.

2011-05-13T23:16:00.000-07:00

I am a guy, and I am very jealous of girls. Because, girls can hug, kiss and cuddle with each other without fear of being called as gay or lesbians. Girls share stories better with other girlfriends compared to guys who would rarely give a fuck of each others problems. Girls can gossip around and look cute and beautiful, rather than being dull, like most trying-to-look-macho guys. But then, I remembered that females get heartbroken real easily, fragile, weak, works a lot at home, get pregnant, get period pains and lots more problems than most men. And that's the reason why boys exist. We exist to protect you girls out there, and its a shame that its hard to find a good guy nowadays. And I'm proud being a guy. Someday I'll treat my wife better than a queen <3

Saturday, 30 April 2011

2011-05-05T04:42:00.000-07:00

LONG TIME NO POOOOOOST. I'M SO INTO TUMBLR RIGHT NOW AND I FORGET ABOUT MY BLOG :P

So, last Saturday was the recollections day. We (grade 10) went to a beach at Nongsa. It was not a beach actually, it's a lake -_- However, the place is quite good. I love laying there and see the sun is shining *whatthefuck*

I got sunburnt and that's ~~suck~~. But another memories were created in my brain. Thnksfrthmmrs X4 <3

Even if the sky is falling down, we're still friends.

2011-04-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

Planned to take a stroll yesterday morning. But it was raining. So, decided to walk to Fatmawati with Michelle, Fransiska and Rebeca. We sat there and talked.

Mind my shorts. Nyeh.
Going out with friends later YEY. Bye.

Love Languange

2011-03-25T22:03:00.000-07:00

Sweet <3

Maddi Jane

2011-03-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

SHE'S AWESOME (Y)

Gnomeo and Juliet

2011-03-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

Juliet: Oh Gnomeo!!. Gnomeo are we really doomed to never see each other again. Why must you wear a blue hat. Why couldn’t it be red like my father, or green like.. Like a leprechaun.. or purple..like ummm like some weird guy. I mean what is in a gnome because you are blue, my father see red, because I am red, I am feeling blue. Oh at any rate that shouldn’t be a thing to keep us apart, should it.

Gnomeo: No, No, it shouldn’t, I couldn’t say it better myself.

No, you don't understand.

2011-03-24T21:38:00.000-07:00

Do I have the choice to choose ? NO I DON'T. I have to stop wishing, I have to stop telling myself that "that" thing ~~WILL~~ happen. I will just be realistic. I know it just won't happen. So, let's prepare from now.

Calm down and everything will be okay. Though it's not like what you have wished for.

Bruno Mars

2011-03-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

He's so cool. he's so sweet. I'll melt if i have a boyfriend like him♥

Toto Nene

2011-03-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

They're a lovely and cute couple :D

Visit their facebook here.

FRIEND

2011-03-19T05:30:00.000-07:00

So today's supermoon. I don't really understand about it actually. This afternoon, Livia and Ata went to my house. We took pictures, we laugh, and we play truth or dare. ILOVETHEM.

And bytheway, it's Benedict Tantra 1st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BENBEN :*

Happy Saturday everyone :D Gbye :)

Manzo Josh Chuang

2011-03-15T04:15:00.000-07:00

Another family member that has borned ! WELCOME TO THE WORLD BBM (BaBy Manzo) :D
It's my uncle and aunt-in-law third son. Congrats guys !

Life's hard but life goes on. Cherish what you get. Cherish what you have. Cherish people beside you. Cherish the score that you got. CHERISH EVERYTHING.

#prayforjapan #prayfortheworld #prayforus

2011-03-15T03:27:00.000-07:00

X : Do you want to marry me ?
Y : YES.
X : Why do you want to marry me ?
Y : So that i can kiss you all the time.

one year older

2011-03-10T03:25:00.000-08:00

HEYHEY.
So, last week on Saturday, 05 March 2011, I went to kak Jennifer Ismaribeth sweet 17th birthday party at Goodies, Smiling Hill. It was a nice party.

Happy sweet seventeen kak jeeeen <3
And the next day which is Sunday, 06 March 2011 was Yvonne Theodore seventeen birthday too. Happy sweet seventeen Yvoneee :D

I don't know what to post. Er, lets end this. Gbye :)

award

2011-03-04T04:08:00.000-08:00

1. Thanks and link to the person who awarded me this award

I got this award from Icha. Thanks for the award :D
2. Share 8 things about myself

- I love surprises
- I love hugs
- I love the feeling when someone strokes my hair
- I'm childish
- I want to study abroad
- Iam a lazy pig
- I hate the moment when I feel no one loves me
- I hate study

3. Pay it forward to 8 bloggers that I have recently discovered

Honestly, i haven't really discovered other bloggers recently. So I can't forward it to the 8 bloggers. Okay, i got one, she's the one who gives me this award. So, how ? :/

4. Contact those blogger and tell them about their awards
'uhh, okay.

I

2011-02-28T00:42:00.000-08:00

I struggle. I cry. I try. I fail. I smile. I laugh. I flirt. I need hugs. I like surprises. I love the feeling when someone strokes my hair.

I feel ordinary. I want to be special. I want to be a genius. I want a cuddle. I forgive. I forget.

I AM FINE :D

I wanna sleep. be stuck in a beautiful dream. I just want to be anywhere but here.

Sometimes I just really hate myself. I hate myself for crumbling down at the slightest things, for being so weak, being idiotic, stupid.

I've been trying my best, but I guess it's not enough. Never was, never will be.

2011-02-20T03:56:00.000-08:00

Never wish for a perfect partner, never expect for an amazing romance, never set standards about whom you should love. Because the one who asks for the best, ends up having leftovers.

Honestly, I'm having trouble on giving a title to every post that I posted. So yeaaah... No title for this post. Kthxbye.

Lucubration.

2011-02-19T00:32:00.000-08:00

HEYY LOVES. How's your day ? Mine's good :)
Just a short post. I want the room in the picture below. It's way too cool.

Cool right ? Right right right ? Yeah, RIGHT.
Err... I dont know what to talk actually. So... Bye :D

USE YOUR SMILE TO CHANGE THE WORLD,

DON'T LET THE WORLD CHANGE YOUR SMILE.

FIFTEEN♥

2011-02-18T03:38:00.000-08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY FIFTEEN :D
Yesterday was my birthday. It's amazing and it's probably the best birthday i've ever had. Yes, it was.
I'm glad I've my friend. THEY'RE AMAZING (Y) my mom and aunt are also amazing :D
So, i got two surprises.
First, its 12 pm, i haven't slept. I'm bbm-ing with my friends, one of them was Windy Hartoko. He asked me to go out, he said that there's a bright star out there, i was so lazy, i went to my balcony and saw nothing. I told him and he said that i have to go to the terrace to see it. I open the door and Windy was there ! He took a cake too. I was so surprised :) THANKYOU XIONK :D *monster hug*

Second, Nanta asked me to bring clothes to the school. he said that he was going to make me suffer by throwing me flour, butter, etc. So i brought the clothes. And suddenly he said that he didn't want to throw me the flour thingy. I'm glad yet annoyed. my bag was heavy and the clothes make it even heavier. So, i went to the physics course after that. Went home,and suddenly Evan, Randy and Jeremy came. I asked them why they come but the wont tell. So, i went to my room and i was surprised. Munich and others were there, in my room, with the cupcakes and the candle. There were Munich, Nanta, Revan, Alvin, Derrick, Livia, Andrew and Amelia. THANKS A LOT GUYS ({}) *monster hug*

I got an itouch for my birthday present. It's from mom and my aunt. THANKS :D

I also got a jacket and back from i lyse (Munich's mom) and i wiraty, THANKS :D

And i also got some red pockets, thank you everyone.

Thanks for the surprise and memories. YOU GUYS RAWWWKSS \m/

thnksfrthmmrs♥

untitled

2011-02-16T05:11:00.000-08:00

HELL-O. I can finally post something here.
btw, HAPPY VALENTINE DAY everyoneee <3 i know this is too late. but its okay (:
so, this is what i got for my vday gift, thanks everyone :)

i dont know what should i post actually. time is chasing at me. i gotta do my chemistry report TT
im going to be fifteen by tomorrow. im getting older HAA. got an itouch for my birthday present. THANKS <3
well, i cant operate the itouch actually. can someone help me ? :D

kay then. hope to see you soon, bye :D

HELP MY FRIEND PLEASEEE :D

2011-01-21T23:05:00.000-08:00

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Because I Got Nothing To Do.

2011-01-16T01:46:00.000-08:00

I'm bored. I'm not in a good mood. TODAY IS BORING.
Tomorrow is Monday and it means, i have to go to the school. Back to the normal life. ~~IHATEIT~~.
I got a lot of homework but decide not to do it. I'm going to cheat my friends work.

RANDOM. I don't know what to post but I feel like posting. I got sunburn I think. My face is red. I think it's going to be dark brown tomorrow. So, I'm going to be uglier. It's all because yesterday. The sun is shining brightly yet we have to work outdoor.

THIS IS SOOOOOO RANDOM AND USELESS.
Okay, I wanna go out so BAD.
HAPPY SUNDAY. Bye.

REDDISH TWIN.

2011-01-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

Produced by Dooodolls company. Earning the title as Faster Talker in Dooodolls Planet, Reddish Twin can speak an average 1,000 word per minute. Half the time, no one understands what he is saying except for Sunny Twin who can read his mind. Sunny Twin looks like Reddish Twin but Sunny Twin is orange.

Okay, i bet you guys wont understand what i'm talking about. So, Revan gave me a doll. That's his souvernir from Jakarta. Thanks dude. The doll is cute. And based on the small book that was hanged at the doll, this doll was named "REDDISH TWIN". And those explanation above, got it from the small book.

At the 15th of January is Yos Sudarso 20th birthday. How old are you, school. We got a bazaar tomorrow. And the next day is Pensi or usually called as Pentas Seni. Hope everything goes well. Amen.

I apologize for everything. I know i'm the one who is wrong. Sorry for my bad. I can say nothing because i know i'm 100% wrong. SORRY.

Kthxbye :D

hello 2011.

2011-01-02T03:41:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D
i hope 2011 is better than 2010 (:

went to Singapore with Henter♥, Munich, ko hendy, William, and Nickson. Let the picture explain !

less picture much memories :D
HENTER IS SO CUTEEEEE ♥ ♥ ♥

OH NO ! school starts next week :o I HATE SCHOOL ! *siiiiigh*
GOODBYE ;)

broken bones.

2010-12-20T23:29:00.000-08:00

IAM BORED. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BORED -,-

goodbye. have a nice day. have a nice holiday (:

back to December.

2010-12-16T22:19:00.000-08:00

HELL-O :D
i went to Obonk and made cookies with Amelia, Fransisca and Munich yesterday.

we named it "boobies cookies" ! amelia did actually. "it looks like a boobs with the colorful nipple on it" she said. after that, we watched the football match between Indonesia and Philippines. Revan, Nanta, Alvin, Randy, Andrew, Aryanto and one of his friend were there too.

i thought today is the last day of school. never expect that i have to go to school tomorrow. tomorrow is the day. the report card were being distributed. how's my score ? err, bad i guess. whatsover haa.

today's suxxxx. i got sore throat which is hurt a lot. and.... shit happens too. i dont know whats wrong with me today. im in a badmood just now. yeah, im a moody person. i bet everyone hate my moody characteristic. actually i have tried to be patient. but i failed to be more patient than i have to be.

its Christine birthday yesterday. she's goin to treat us today at Pizza Hut. i wish i can go. but i cant :( tuition suxxxx -,-

er, by the way, i wanna thank you. thanks for being there even when im in a bad mood. you still try to make me smile. thanks for the patient. sorry for being such a suck friend for you. im no good. im sorry. and get well soon dear you (:

hope my mood change. i hate bad mood.
BYE.

now or never.

2010-12-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

HEYY. back after period of time. exam's over like finally. torturing because of that exam for 8 days are enough for me. so, the result of my test are........... quite good but im not too satisfied of that result. however, i have to cherish it. there are a lot of people whose score are worse than mine.

er.. er... okay ! choir competition on Wednesday, 8th December 2010. we bet SMK Kartini but we're being beaten by SMA Imannuel.

SEE MY LEGS. BLACK AND WHITE.

and then.............

see what i wore yesterday. i dressed like a girl. yeah, im a girl but not the feminine one.

so, on Monday, which is today, i go to school and i do nothing. its boring. but, i have to come, the teacher will do the absent thingy. and i dont want to get an Alpha. so, i play cards just now with my friends. its... fun :D

and we got choir practice. the competition is on Saturday, 18 December 2010. wish us a big luck. the theme is "Visit Batam 2010". im lazy to join actually, but its all because of score. i will get a 100 if i join this HEHE :P

and we also do some doodling just now. too bored.

kelly makes this :D

i have to go now, school tomorrow, i dont think i can wake up.

and bytheway ! mom asks me to sell clothes via online. so, visit this link. who knows that you're interested ? i've just started it and i dont think im goin to make it :P just wish me luck.

GOODNIGHT, GOODLUCK AND GOODBYE.

never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone, you've got nothing - tumblr.

Pembubaran Panitia Yoscup + Edufair 2010

2010-11-07T04:37:00.000-08:00

Sabtu, 06 November 2010
Pacific Hotel
Pembubaran panitia Yoscup + Edufair 2010
Let the pictures explain !

see more at ce livia's facebook.

#PRAYFORINDONESIA

GET WELL SOON INDONESIA. WE LOVE YOU :(

when you compliment me, i wont believe you.

2010-11-07T04:18:00.000-08:00

hey ! its been a month since i posted something here. i got no idea what to post. but now i got one.
i'm sad. they don't understand but they judge. i don't meant to give a hope. i act like usual. its them who think that i give a hope. i don't. i swear i don't ! you guys hate me ? you guys dislike me ? oh yeah, that's great, thanks. i got a bad image in your eyes. all of you :(

am sad and am sure that no one really care about this. whatever it is. i have to pretend that i'm alright, and nothing has happened. buck up cha :')

tomorrow's MONsterDAY. hate it. school sucks. chaoxx

they are all mine !

2010-10-03T06:53:00.000-07:00

Heyhey. went to Batu Ampar harbour today. Went there to see a war ship from Surabaya with Evan, CT, Kelly, Randy, Alphie, Nio, Indra, Andri, Andrew, AndiChen, etc. Met a lot of Yos mates there.

Went to NH after that. And Alphie drove us home with a sedan. 8 of us. That's kool -___- HAHAHA.

Tomorrow is Monday. I hate that. I hate tomorrow lesson. Haaaaa, the point is, I HATE MONDAY.

Kay, stfu. BYE :D

when life give you 100 reason to cry, show life that you got 1000 reason to smile.

2010-09-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

how sweet is this ?

how cute is this ? how funny is this ?

how pretty is her ?

i want to polish my nail become like this :D

END OF THE POST.

HAAAA, NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL !

the purpose i make this post is to share the pictures that i get from the internet :D

kthxbye xx

its a weekend.

2010-09-25T07:30:00.000-07:00

hey ! im back :D

got now school today because the other class got an IQ test. went to Maitreya school to play badminton. i think my badminton skill have improve. a bit :p thanks to AndiChen that taught me how to do the backhand and fourhand correctly :D

SEE HOW GAY IS THIS ! HAHAHAHA

thanks for today :D evan, christine, kelley, livia, febi, cindy, sherleen, alphie, nio, andichen.

so, this post is totally nonsense.

will make another post soon after i publish this post :D teeHee xD

some days, i wish things had turned out differently.

2010-09-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

hey, suppose to do my homework now, but decide to post something here since its been a long time since i post. i dont know what to post actually :/

not in a good mood these few days. high school life is so torturing. i wish im a baby or toddler that can only cry, smile and laugh. feeling so down. thanks for all the support Dear Friends :D

THANKS A LOT xxx.

i got new friends. lots of new friends. i love them. hope that they can love me like i love them (:

went to USS (Universal Studio Singapore) on the fasting holiday (WTF IS FASTING HOLIDAY ?)

went to Turi Beach on the Hari Raya holiday. dont even take pictures there. play banana boat and jetski. wanted to play paraceiling at first, but im afraid :/ kinda regret it, but nevermind, still have a lot of chance :D

im craving for more holiday. a year holiday will be GREAT. im sick of school HAHA.should have cherish it actually, and im trying to.

off soon ! lots of things are waiting for me.kthxbye !

DONT CRY BECAUSE ITS OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED (:

-@debdungpaw-

follow my twitter ! @chachaaawr.

am listening to Tak Mungkin Lagi by Kerispatih over and oveer :D

celebrating indonesia's independent day.

2010-08-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

Location : SMAKYS (SMAK Yos Sudarso) Batam
Date : Saturday, 28 August 2010
Time : 07.00 - 12.30
Kind of race (?) : tarik tambang, estafet makan, cari koin dalam tepung, menghias kelas.

see how hard they tried to pull the rope.

iam too lazy to explain what had happened. hem, not in my mood to post actually :/ iam sorry. asdfghjkl;
BYE.

just the way you are

2010-08-21T04:33:00.000-07:00

how hard i try to smile and be happy infront of you guys, iam still a human being. sometimes, i cant hold it anymore, so yeah, hope you guys understand it.

my post were so damn bad, i only post some quotes and write a little. i got nothing to talk about. school has taken much time from me. test, homework and project.well, thats what we called school.

i got a lot of new friends in my new school, SMAKYS. well, just wishing that i can co-operate with them. i just got into a fight with my classmates *siiiiigh*

iam overBORED.

oh, how i wish you want me like i want you.

and im giving up all of this. im goin to forget every single thing about you. i dont wanna feel anyheartbreaks (:

but i cant lie. i wish i were her. i envy her because he likes her. haha. stop it chachaaaa !

keep smiling (:

xxx

live-laugh-smile.

2010-08-19T22:59:00.000-07:00

hey, iam still sad. feeling unstable. cried at school just now. i cant barely hold my tears.

im trying to smile. im trying to hide my tears. i need someone to talk to, someone that can listen to me, without commenting about what i talk.

thanks everyone that try to cheer me up :') and thanks for those who care about me :')

munich, livia, atalya, ka vistha, ko billy, devis, henokh, HENTER, andre, freddy, marwah, edmund, etc.

henter does not care about me, but he makes me laugh. thanks henter ((:

i wish YOU did the same thing, hey YOU. i wish YOU read this.

;(

2010-08-19T04:00:00.000-07:00

IAM SAD

UUH, CAN SOMEONE CHEER ME UP ? HIKS.

I FEEL LIKE CRYING.

IAM HOPELESS *SIIIIIIIGH*

SAD !

because i got nothing to post.

2010-08-06T06:53:00.000-07:00

CHEER ME UP AND I'LL BE THANKFUL.

BYE ! :D

l.i.f.e

2010-07-31T23:05:00.000-07:00

im so blur. i feel unsecure. dont know what to do. well, keep living !

you take away everything from me and i feel so alone. no one notice me. SORRY. and HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY :D <3

this feeling is just not right.

2010-07-17T03:07:00.000-07:00

hello people ! long time no see. just make it quick. im sorry because of my 'lackness' of posting shit here. i dont mean it. i feel like posting but yeaa.. holiday's over. im an officialy high school student after i did the MOS and praMOS on monday till thursday. at first, i feel like 'argh yos' but i think yos is not that bad. er, kay then ! see ya next time. sorry and thanks <3

100 truth.

2010-06-29T21:44:00.000-07:00

BORED, find this from facebook and feel like copying and post it here, so yeaah...
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: mineral water
2. Last phone call: regina's mom
3. Last text message in fb: reza
4. Last song you listened to: perfect two - auburn
5. Last time you cried: 1 week ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
7. Been cheated on: nay. idk :/
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: (?) -,-
9. Lost someone special: yep, in that time special but now, not special anymore.
10. Been depressed: yep, LOL
11. Been drunk and threw up: no
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. sky blue
13. tosca
14. shocking pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yep :D
16. Fallen out of love: no, haha.
17. Laughed until you cried: yep.
18. Met someone who changed you: met no one but do find someone that try to change me.
19. Found out who your true friends were: er er, dont know :/
20. Found out someone was talking about you: dont know, but i think yes, haha. dont care :p
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nonono
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : idk.
23. How many kids do you want to have: no kids.
24. Do you have any pets: no.
25. Do you want to change your name: just my nickname.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing. just cut the cake and sing happy bday lalaala~
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.40
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: play games.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: GROW TALLER.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: this morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my past.
32. What are you listening to right now: television sound -,-
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: tom ? tommy ever, tom never.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: holiday trip.
35. Most visited webpage: twitter.
36. What's your real name: alfrecha feblinesia
37. Nicknames: chacha
38. Relationship Status: widow. lol, single.
39. Zodiac sign: aquarius
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: charitas
42. Middle School?: charitas.
43. High school/college?: yos sudarso :/
44. Hair colour: orangeish black. going to dye it black SOON.
46. Height: 158 T___T
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: not sure.
48: What do you like about yourself?: nothing.
49. Piercings: yep
50. Tattoo: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: ears
54. First best friend: munich lie
55. First sport you joined: basketball
56. First vacation: singapore.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: no
60. Drinking: no
61. I'm about to: make this post
62. Listening to: television sound
63. Waiting on: waiting on ? waiting on time ?
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: no
65. Get Married?: yes haha
66. Career?: yeeees

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: loud..
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: never
78. Lost glasses/contacts: never
79. Sex on first date: never
80. Broken someone's heart: maybe ?
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yep
84. Cried when someone died: no
85. Fallen for a friend?: idk.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: NO.
87. Miracles: yes. there's a miracle if we believe.
88. Love at first sight: no because i have never feel it before.
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yes maybe. dk deh.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: no
96. Ever cheated on somebody? forget
97. If you could go back in time: 17 february 1996
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: idk.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: maybe yes. maybe no.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yep

you're the straw to my berry.

2010-06-29T21:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO. back after a period of time.

met shireen sungkar and her sister, zaskia sungkar. idk when. forget. well, they came to mitra mall and mom's like organising so, they had their luch at resto @central and mom asked me to come.

went to yos sudarso yday. take the new uniform and books there. no lies, the material of the uniform are awesomely awful (?) the material is too rough and yaa, not nice deh. haha. then also see the book. and i feel like dying after i see it *SIGH*

and its mom birthday yday. so, i baked a cake for her. resto made a tumpeng for her and wiraty bought a cake for her.

i know this is disgusting, but felix and dd said its nice ! hehe :p

GODDAMMIT. WHY I AM SO UGLY ? T___T i wish im pretty :(

so, july will come and i have made #julywish. here are some.
- won a lottery so that i wont be out of cash $$
- i become prettier. HAHA -,-
- GROW TALLER 10CM.
- be happy.
- i get that ..... :p

going to singapore tomorrow. i hope it will be fun. other people have already ended their holiday and me ? just started. whatsover. i keep complaining about my life. i know i shouldnt. i must cherish it. but i just cant. i want to be happy.
you guys should follow my twitter. why ? because if you become my followers, you are AWESOME. haha, this is so lame. so, just follow laa. mention me if you want me to follow you back.

FOLLOW ME AND I'LL LOVE YOU AS I LOVE 3 LITTLE GREEN MEN FROM THE PIZZA PLANET :D

kay deh. see yaa later. im goin to post something if possible. hehe

GOODBYE.

so just you know.

2010-06-21T02:38:00.000-07:00

i need to talk. i cant find one, like i used to. so here iam. i have to talk. im sick. im sick of those bullshit.
"anak jaman skrg pegang bb teruus, ga bs lepas", "ap gunanya si maen gnian ? facebook, twitter, yman, bbman.it will destroy you."
~~FUCK YOU MAN~~. im not the only kid that keep bbming, ym-ing, fb-ing, or anything ! cmon ! its HOLIDAY. i will repeat. ITS HOLIDAY. why cant you understand me ? why cant ALL OF YOU understand me ? what you remember about me are only IM LOUSY, WHAT I CAN DO ARE ONLY BBMING, YM-ING, FB-ING, BLABLABLA.
so should i just throw my blackberry ? should i just close all my account SO THAT you wont give a shit ? so that you will STOP commenting everything about me ?

pleaseeeee, im holding my blackberry doesnt mean i keep bbm-ing.
where is my credit when i got a ~~QUITE GOOD RANK~~ ? where ?
why can edo get that easily ? when he joins the charitas idol, you guys like KEEP PRAISING him.
when edo got his report card and his score INCREASE a little and he is in th 14th rank, you guys STILL praise him.
mom is so excited i bet her "little ~~lovely~~ boy" increase his score. am i right, MOM ? she says to me "ce, nilai edo naik loh." proud huh ? and i bet you tell that "good news" to other people. to everyone.
and when im in the 4th rank, whats your comment ? you dont even care. you dont even tell my aunt i bet. because what ? BECAUSE YOU DONT EVEN CARE.
i shouldnt post thing like this. people will read this. but i can stand it no more. i TRY HARD to make you PROUD. but yes, IM NOT EXIST.
can someone cheer me up and make me feel like im important ? please. i need one.

keep smiling cha. pretend that everything is alright and you are fine with that. be patient. it doesnt really matter actually. no one do cares about me. no one do cares about what i feel. just keep smiling and you will be fine.

and i tell no one about this. so PLEASE, the one who read this, dont tell anyone. thanks for reading this bullshit. i feel MUCH better after i write this post :]

tears rundown ? so what ?

2010-06-19T00:38:00.000-07:00

made this for ryan on tuesday since he's moving out on the next day, wednesday.

we give him 14 pieces of notes. write anything that we want for him there.

this is what i wrote for him.

idk what to post actually. my feeling is so random. i hate it. whatsover whatsover. talk less.

saying "im okay" is easier then explaining why im not okay. thats why i lie.

went to my aunt's yday. effin tired babysittin' those child. nah, they are HYPER. but i love them :)

I NEED A REAL VACATION. GOIN TO A PLACE SO THAT I CAN CHILL THERE. THIS IS NOT HOLIDAY. DANG !

school starts soon and i dont want to. arrrrrgh.

i envy those people who tweets about their holiday.

i dont understand the way mom thinks. im a bit annoyed but what can i do ? pretend the everything's fine.

i know you love edo more than you love me but stop treating me like that.

i wake up with a not fine feeling AGAIN. i feel like crying all sudden with no reason. whatsover.

end of bullshit. im just sad. terrible.

BYE.

every hello ends with a goodbye and every goodbye starts with a hello.

2010-06-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

HELL-o.
holiday is still boring when i dont go out.

so, last week i went to MM to attend the reunion thingy with my classmates. the grade 6 one. well eh, we went to pizza hut to eat then karaoke-ing and timezone.

and whatthefuck man ?! EDO (my annoying brother) JOINS THE CHARITAS IDOL AND HE WINS ! YES, WINS ! we have to buy a coupon and write the one who we want to win. at first, mom ask me to buy 40k and after he go into the final, my aunt ask me to buy 200k ! at first i only buy 30k and the second i buy 100k. i dont think they should give me that lot of money to support him -___- whatsover. the point is HE WINS.

so, i played pb (pointblank) with some friends, idk when. have a lotsa fun ! there were me, evan, tommy limes, eugenius tommy, olivia, andrew, and idk who. too bad, ryan kept dc-ing.

so today i have a lotsa fun. go to school to support edo, then go to citarasa to eat. spend much time there. we (nadia, sisca, ruben, michellea, evan, ryan, munich, hnokh item, me, inyoi) play dare or truth, we laugh together, we tell jokes, we tell our secret, everything. some of them go home. and others go to michelle a's. and talk again ! haha. bytheway, ryan can rides the motorcycle now and just now he drives me home. he drives sisca, evan, nadia, and michellea too. haha. when he drives me home, i was like "GOD, PLEASE BLESS ME !" HAHA.

nadia's goin home today. she's goin back to bandung. ahh, thats too fast. i will miss her. well, lets meet up someday :) ryan's goin to his hometown on wednesday. no comin back, because he go to loyola.

and bytheway, last night (morning actually) i watched germany vs australia. germany wins ! 4-0 :D
i love germany ! i love england too. i love both ! so, i support both at the fifa world cup. what about you ?

i got an award from friend of moi. eugenia. thanks yaaa ;)

1. Berapa blog yang kamu punya dan berapa umurnya?
ada 2. yg satu micro blog, twitter. umurnya ? dr mulai agustus 2009, jd itung sndri deh :) trs blog ini, umurnya uda lupa :p dr dl uda buat, cmn jrg post dulu.

2. Sejak kapan kamu mengenal dunia blog?

kelas 7an gt. taon 2007.
3. Mengapa tertarik membuat blog dan untuk apa ?
sbenernya prtma ga tertarik. tp wajib buat demi nilai komputer. dan akhirnyaaa, jd ketagihan deh. kyknya enak aja bisa share something ke org laen. dapet tmen lg :)
4. Apa kelebihan dan kekurangan blog kamu?
kelebihan...... bacod gue ! i talk bullshit what :p kekekurangannya mah banyak. cb aja dibandingin ama blog2 yg laen, pasti kliatan :)
5. Award dan tag ini berikan kepada 5 teman blogger yang lain.
awardnya ak kasi ke siapa yaa ? bole kasi balik ga ? haha. ak kasi ke............ veronica ong, eriana wijaya, amelia amel, fransisca sylvia, dan regina.
ngomong2, gue males kasi tau kasi tau mereka ini, jdinya, biarin aj yaa, hehe :)

and last thing i wanna say. BB IS SO DAMN CUTE.

kay deh, BYE !

p.s : no doubt. i will miss all of you. ICELA, NADIA, SISCA, RYAN, INYOI, RUBEN, RAMOS, TATA, ALDO, ADELINE, HANY, PETRA, SISCO, TIAN, MICHELLEN, BRIGETTE, HENOKH ITEM, etc. :(

will you be there when i need you ?

2010-06-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

i got no life. life's so boring since i got nothing to do and nowhere to go for holiday.

wednesday

munich's bday at resto @central. HAPPY BORNDAY MUN :D

saturday

morning walk with friends. go to fatma. eat. pics are from amelia's blog. so its the same. sorry.

LOOK AT ME. WHATTHEFUCK ?! IM FAT. FAT. FAT. SHIT.

then munich evan and amelia go to my house. then we go to the xl centre. by a taxi. LOL. damn ! munich got an itouch and blackberry for her birthday. she's so lucky ! haha. then go to nh and watch sex and the city2.

sunday

nothing to do. only basketball with some friends. hehe

monday

bake a cake with amelia, fransisca, nadia, and rebeca at amelia's. quite suceed. 10% failed :D

end of the post.

GOODBYE.

i gotta feeling.

2010-05-30T00:52:00.000-07:00

im not fine. seriously not. i feel like talking to someone that can really understand me and i cant find one. so i guess i have to keep it myself. i woke up this morning with a "not fine" feeling. i feel like i got something really heavy in my heart and mind. well, i guess im goin to be fine in a few hours or days.

im in a long holiday as what you know. and im goin nowhere in this super long holiday. im bored. BORED. shit, lemme out from this boredom. gladly, i have friends :)

these days i got a feeling like...... argh, hard to explain. kay ! i wont deny. i miss someone that love me. whoever is that. i just need them. i want to know that they love me. i want to have a feeling like "yeaah, i know you love me" HAHA. laugh at it. i just miss that person.

SOMETIMES, WHEN I SAY "IM OKAY" I WANT SOMEONE TO LOOK IN MY EYES, HUG ME TIGHT AND SAY "I KNOW YOU ARE NOT"

cherish me while im here.

2010-05-27T03:21:00.000-07:00

this are some pictures when we are at fatmawati as what i have told ya at my last post.

bri, you are so sexy ! ;)

went swimming just now with amelia, fransisca and rebeca ;) have lotsa fun. well, except the toilet. the toilet is really DIRTY -,- then eat at fatma. intending to go to nh but then cancelled. so, we went straight to michelle a. home :) talk a lot there. haha. then, the tummy started to make a sound which mean hungry. decided to ordered some food from warung pizza but then change our mind. we went to warung pizza straightly by amelia's car.

after we are done, we chatted there. nostalgiaaaa :p the things we did when we are in elementry. stupid yet funny ! HAHA. went home at 3.

bytheway, on tuesday i went to tg batu AGAIN to pray for the 100 days of grandpa. and have my hair dyed there. its like orange red-ish. and know what ? damn regret it i feel like a........... oh cha ! just say it. ok. i feel like a ~~WHORE~~. like a ~~BITCH~~ :'( im fugly. no lies.

then, also went to jhonny andrean (how to spell ?) did manicure and the result was damn bad -,- untidy and fugly. since it is ugly and its not nice to see, im lazy to took a pict of it.

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on tuesday, we went to mcd to grab some food after school. i mean after the "cap 3 jari" thingy. then we went to nh. we walk ! its far you know. FAR. haha. and when we wanted to went in, the security came. he didnt let us to go into nh with the school uniforms. so, we started to think how to go into there. and finally we went in from the other side. understand what i say ? hehe. then the boys asked andrew to bought a 15.000 tshirt so that they could go into nh 'safely'. the want to play pb at best 1. except inyoi and hans. they joined the girls to go to inul. karaoke. and after that, i went home. tgbatu is waiting for meeeeee.

and this is the pict of us when we are at mcdonalds :D

hans, ryan, evan, randy, amelia, ecka, munich, michelle a, inyoi, me, andrew :)

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oh yeaaa, find this at ka nat tumblr. and i find it so true ! :p

and the last. yesssss, i find this thing really cute ! its DANBO :) someone buy it for meeeeee :p

kay. end of the post.

GOODBYE.

somehow, i wish you are here. for me.

im so good at making a crap. agree with me !

2010-05-24T02:12:00.000-07:00

hell-o :D another shitty post for today, hehe. attend the flag ceremony this morning because of there is like "pelantikan" osis 2010-2011. i used to be a member of osis and ms. rosa ask me to join. (its evan fault actually -,- he mentioned my name !) we (the old member of osis) are like giving our duty to them (the new member). this is so complicated, dont you think so ? haha

done with the flag ceremony, we go to the principal's office. mw cap 3 jari di ijazah. hehe. and saw my UN score too !

its 36.20 rendah jg yaaa -,-

my heaaaad. its like WOW, SO BIG ! -,-

then, go here go there. then, we go to the canteen and talk bullshit. there are me, evan, ryan, inyoi, kunto, henokh item, tian, sisko, and andrew.

natasya, grade six student . suddenly come, sit, see my phone and say : "eh, aku foto driku sndri yaa"

HAHA.

well, im the only girl and i used to it :p there is tommy actually but he went home earlier. before that i also chat with tommy, andrew, kunto and wisely, hehe :p then decided to go to fatmawati with michelle n., michelle a., adeline, brigette, and evan ! lotsa fuuuuun :DD we took a lotsa pict. i love mitchy macbook ! it makes me look pretty ! im fugly -,- hihi :p

spend a lot of time there. and finally went home. arrive home, i open my laptop afsap. tian has been waiting for me. waiting for what ? pb ! hehe. im playing this game recently ;) hehe.

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on saturday, i went to school. intended to do the mading thingy but at the end we did nothing ! i found new thing at my school. its a new corner there !

then evan, hans, henokh item, andrew, randy, ecka and michelle a. went to my to eat. and also amel !

hehe. after that michelle and ecka went home and the rest of us went to my room and talk. we talk about anything ! hihi :p after almost everyone went home, we (evan, amel, randy, henokh item) decided to went to farmer to bought ice cream. and then henokh went home. the 4th of us went to fatmawati. we chat for like 3 hours (?) then went to cita rasa to eat. hehe. then went home.
i know this post is effin boring. im sorry DX
here, i found some oldies pict ! haha ;D

grade 8. study tour to malaysia ! seeeee ! there is glenn there !

chacha, amel, vanessa, ecka, ryan.

love this pic, we are so fucking KOOL :p

L-A-M-E ! HAHA

@ harris with my small cousiiiin <3

IXA. not all sih the people. hehe.

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i love baby beeeen :*

kay, this is the end of my ~~bullshit~~ :)

goodbyeeeeeeee ! xx

LAST THING. SORRY FOR MY BROKEN ENGLISH :(

im a loner, forever will be.

2010-05-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

LOVE,

this post is really random. im annoyed. and i feel like crying. shit, i need someone to make me laugh. i need some jokes that can make me laugh happily.

okaay, i dont know what to post seriously. its random but still dont know what to talk and i insist to post something now. what will you do if you are annoyed ? i guess im the strangest person in the world (pathetic). i cry when im annoyed or angry. i cry when im sad. i think i cry a lot. then why ? is that a sin ? i hate crying when im annoyed. i dont want to but my heart want it and it makes my eyes produce tears.

recently, my mood change drastically. i laugh easily and i cry easily. shit. i hate being an 'easily cry' girl. im a coward. im not brave enough to face the problem i got. im not patience enough to face my brother (he's super duper fucking annoying !) well, whatever is that, i still have to let him. he's smaller. i hate the fact that he's smaller than me so that i have to let him.

bytheway, look at my nails ! its tosca and pink. lovelove :D

and, i dont know what to say again. sorry for this shitty post. thanks and BYE :)

im a loner, forever will be ;p

GOODNITE :) XX

say hello, say goodbye. laugh, smile, tears, and sad are mixed into one.

2010-05-10T00:49:00.000-07:00

i'll post this in bahasa. better and easier :D

location : NONGSA POINT MARINA
date : 4 may - 6 may 2010, 3 days 2 nights.

day 1.
aku berangkat jam 12.30 gt. semua uda pada duluan. aku terakhir soalnya harus ngabsen gt. mn si tommy ama velis lelet lagi. akhirnya, uda nyampe disono, aku uda tinggal naro barang doang soalnya pmbagian apartment uda selese, hehe. satu apartment tu ada 10 ato 9 org gt. aku skmar ama amel n bri. siap naro barang, kt kmpul dibawah. icebreaking dulu. maen bbrp game gt. aku masuk klompok burung sama amel, henokh item, amandus, wisely, christy, audy, petra n damian. mau buat yel2nya susaah. soalnya burung kan slalu dikaitin sm yg negatif, hehe. tp akhirnya dpet jg si yel2nya.

abis break bntr, kt lnjut berenang. sbenernya aku pengen nyebur tp g pengen, hehe. tp munich n michelle a. dorong aku. jadinya aku jatoh gt k kolamnya. trus kita mw ngambil foto pas lg loncat gt, takenya berulang ulang. haha. capek, trus hidungnya kmsukan air trs.

lalu balik ke apartmentnya buat mandi. ktnya pas aku naik mereka seru2an gt dorong amel, michelle a. sama inyoi. jadi nyeseeel g ikut dorong, hehe. abis semuanya kelar trmsuk makan malem, kt lnjut games lg. ga seru seru banget sih. pas yg acara kiss2 baru seru. ada banyak permen kiss gt trus ambil satu lalu, kasi ke org yg km mau kasi. ribet deh jelasinnya, hehe. trus yg pasrt terakhir tu, henokh item nyuruh saling hugs gt. aku lagi pewe gt jadinya dduk aja. ada org yg dtg mw hug, br aku hug balek. tb2............... *drumrolls* si ruben dateng dgn mukanya yg uda cengeng gt tp belom nangis. haha. pas kejadiannya si sedi. tp pas aku pikir ulang lucu. sedi jg sih, hehe. gini nih.

chacha ruben > hugs each other

cha2 : rubeen, aku pengen nangis. hiks

ruben : aku juga. hiks

yauda deh, pelukan kita lama gt sambil nangis tentunya. HAHA. trs abis ngom2 gt, acarany uda siap. aku sama amel ke apartment ruben di ujuuuuung. trus kekmarnya gt, amel maen gitar trs si ruben nyanyi. baru kita bertiga mau keluar makan popmie, satu popmie bertiga gt. eeeh, rubennya br mkn satu suap lgsng diusir bu rosa. oia, siap mkn malem, kt ada foto2 gt dl. ada yg sambil loncat gt. tp michelle n. blom upload ke fb jd g bs ku upload ksni, hehe.

wtf is this ? HAHA

damn it, im so ugly. ugly ugly.

day 2.

pagi2 bangun jalan pagi dulu ke lobby bawah. sampe di lobby bawah, kt breakfast dr hotelnya. omelettenyaaa yummy ! :9 apalagi yg cheese doang ! haha. trus balik lagi ke apartmentnya. naik tangganya itu capeeeek bo :o

lagu mandi sgala macem, trus saat teduh. doa doa gitu sekalian nyiapin buat guru2 yg mw dtg. mereka gabisa nginep.

tshirtnya sama semua nih.

cmn yg 9a, depannya gambar 9a. yg 9b dpnnya 9b.

thaaanks to munich uda mau gamabarin walopun.. pake ngomel, hehe. PEACE MUN ! ;)

orang jelek emg slalu jelek, kyk SAIA.

lalu, acara bentar sama guru. abis itu, gurunya plg. kt lanjut renang lagi. pas renang hr kedua ini seru nih. bagi aku sih. haha. aku naik ke pelampung gitu trus si ruben dorongin dr blkg. kyk bos aja aku, haha. eeeh, tb2 si tommy mw ikut. jd dy tarik dr dpan gt. haha. trs mrka sok2 mw angkat aku ke pantai gt. tp ga sanggup krn aku berat, haha ;DD

trus kt maen gt. aku sama ruben, tommy sama henokh item. aku sama tommy di pelampung, ruben n henokh item dorong. kt harus jatohin musuh tp yg dorong gaboleh ikut main. hehe. gilaak, susah banget itu mw buat tommy jatoh. tp tommy jg ssah buat aku jatoh si. hehe. akhirnya sih aku yg kalah. tp wktu itu lg ga siap. haha *gamau ngaku kalah*

trs, mereka uda pada balek smua. nessa ngajak aku mandi dibwah aja, soalnya diatas psti penuh. yauda deh. pas siap mandi, kt nyari2 yg laen uda pd g ada. trnyata, mereka (tommy, ruben, henokh item, roland, sinung, jerk) pd nongkrong di dpn pantai gt. trus kt yaa foto2 gt lagi, hehe.

look at my tummy ! oh shit. kyk anak busung lapeeer. pdhl itu tali dr clana. uda jelek tmbh jelek.

heart these 2 pics banget banget :DD

abis itu kt baru jalan naek bareng2 gt. trus dinner. trus malem ini tuh yg paling berkesan gt. memorable bangeeeeet <3 disana tu lah baru nangis senangis nangisnya. semua rahasia terkuaaak (seileeeh) sediiih gt. kt cmn nyalain lilin gt.

waktu bed time, amel ama bri bentar doang uda pada molor. jadilah aku keluar. trnyta di apartment nessa masi pada maen. ikut lah aku. tp ga ad gmn2 kali sih. trus pada bubar akhirnya. sebenernya aku pengennya ngumpul ditempatnya ruben sono tuh. tp brhubung uda paling ujung trs cowo smua gajadilah. padahl ditempat mreka seru gt. haha. saat2 sperti itu, aku bener2 brhrap bs jd cowo. mereka ngomongin rhasia2 gt, haha. if i were a boy...... :p oia, suster ata nginep di malem kedua.

day 3.

last day, hari terakhir. bangunnya agak siangan soalnya uda pd capeeee. trus jalan pagi lagi mw breakfast ke lobby bawah. abis mkn, kt ke pantai dulu maen2. pdhl wktu itu panassss sekali. hehe.

habis itu, aku, nessa, ruben, tommy, dkk. naek bareng2 lg. aku lgsng ketempat ruben tuh. hehe. enak aja nongkrong disana. soalnya orgnya seru2. trs ada isi notes jg sih sebelumnya. buat temen2 gt. ampe jam 11an gt aku, tommy, kunto ga mandi. ternyata si ramos dtg dan dy jg blom mandi. trs si ryan jg. trnyta pada males mandi smua ! hehe :D

dsna tuh kt lucu2 gaje lah. haha. apalagi si roland tu yg smangat pas kt buka channel 22. haha.

*vulgar*

bkn ak yg foto, si tommy tuh yg foto.

trus ada yg blg sruh siap2 packing gt. balek lah aku ke apartment ku buat mandi n packing. and the end, kt dibagiin amplop trus plg. rencananya sih hr itu, tgl 6 pengumuman. ternyata diundur jd bsok. emg lah pemerintah ini. ckckck ;)

pas plgnya seru nih. aku ikut mobil tommy. satu mobil isinya cowo smua, cmn aku cewe sndiri. ada tommy, jerk, hnokh item, kunto, sisco ama ndrew. aku dipangku jerk gt. haha. nekat beneer dah. trs supirnya tommy itu jg gokil meen. dy ngebut gt ampe speednya 140. mansaaaaab. haha. seruuu kali lah. dr NPM ke sukajadi cmn skitar 15 mnit *rasanya*

ahh, ngepost kyk gini jd inget n kangen masa2 itu, haha.

trus gt, si amel ngajak ntn pas uda nyampe skola. ywd akhirnya plg bntar trus ak, amel, evan, nessa pergi ke bcs ntn ironman2. pas ak ntn uda mw ktduran gt. capee. tp pas actionnya smangat lg. haha.

p.s : thaaaanks buat temen2 yg uda nulis notes buat aku. walopun ada yg kusuruh tulis. bakal kusimpen bae2. hehe. dari 21 notes, aku cmn gatau tulisan 1 org loh, hehe.

xo,

chacha (:

time to seperate. with smile.

2010-05-09T21:56:00.000-07:00

hello bloggies :D
i feel freeeeee ! im on a long holiday about 2 months. damn sheez, i will be fatter and fatter soon :( i got nothing to do at home.
so, on 7th of may, the result of the national exam is finally out and i PASSED ! my total score is like 36 point something :D damn, i feel like dreaming. haha. none of my schoolmates failed. im glad of that. my school is in the 7th rank sekepri.

kay ! will be soon posting about the fareweel party :D

chaoxx.

she's just an ordinary girl with a shame inside her heart.

2010-04-24T13:19:00.000-07:00

so i got no topic to post. and this is it. 10 random things about me :D uh huh uh huh (?) *applause*

1. i cant decide something. i have to ask someone. im a person with two sounds. one say yes, one say no. this is not a good thing. i must learn to make my own decision.

2. i read books. i imagine while im reading. my imagination gone wild when i read. when imagination beats reality, you better watch out :) (what am i talking about ?)

3. i love the sky. one reason why i named my blog blueskyways.

4. i cant find a better way to calm myself down than sleeping. i find it a bit hard to sleep actually. but i can easily fall asleep in the afternoon. thats weird. is it a habit or an illness ? i dont know.

5. i hate cigarettes. the smell. hate doesnt mean not going to try.

6. for me, cupcakes is cute. its not really my favorite though.

7. i love making new friends or maybe having a new bestfriends.

8. on the other hand, i need some space for myself. alone.

9. my favorite quotes or words or whatever of the month.

10. my biggest wish : ALL MY WISH COME TRUE :D

xo, click here. ask me anything :)

keep my heart cross. i promise, this is the last.

2010-04-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

thanks for hurting me. thanks for telling me how cruel you are. thanks for making me regret of everything i have done. thanks for your hate, thanks for your meanness. im so much better without you. you are only a burden for me. you hurt me not only once. you are rude, you are mean. the worst is you are not a gentleman. naah, you are not. you make girls cry and you dont feel sorry for her. you are good for nothing. i promise. i wont cry for you. i wont cry for what have you done to me. i wont. you are not worth for my tears boy ! you are a ~~coward~~.
im regret. regret for being your ex. regret for making some funny and mushy experience with you. regret for loving you at once. never believe that sucks thing will happen today. thanks for making my day sucks !

pointless.

2010-04-06T04:48:00.000-07:00

heioooo ! gossssssh, i hate my home inet connection. so slow and irritatating :\
that makes me hard to post something at my blog :(
so, how are yaaaa ? :D
yday, i went to tg. batu to pray for my grandma and grandpa.
damn, the ship is FULL. so, we gotta sit a plastic chair. thats ~~SUCK~~.
then, decided to go upstairs, the top of the ship. and took some pictures :p

yeaaaaah, i know im UGLY :(

so, that is it. this not the only pictures. still got more but im not goin to upload it :)

daaaarn ! tomorrow im goin to the my phyics project about sun with my group and the thing that annoys me is they are going to do it at my home. ryan choose it without asking my permission, grr DX and i start complaining (of course) im in a group with tian, hany, michelle, and ryan. why dont we just do it at ryan's or michelle's ? or maybe at school ? grrr. btw, hany and tian live far away from the school.

btw, i got a new member of family ! its baby ben ! BENEDICT TANTRA. he's only 2 weeks + .... days :D

love hiiiiim, ha ! <3

youth is the moment you always carry in your heart -- raisa gorbachev.

x :)